HOW TO ACCEPT YOUR MARRIAGE IS OVER WHEN YOU STILL CAN'T BELIEVE IT
The court proceedings are done. The last reason to stay in contact is gone. No kids to co-parent, no family dinners, no check-ins. You're essentially strangers now… or might as well be. And somehow, that finality makes it harder to accept, not easier. You thought closure would come with the decree. It didn’t.
I remember this piece from Humans of New York, and it was strarkly different than the run of the mill divorce post. Usually people tell a harrowing story and then how they triumphed, and this story, was about how hard it was for the OP to recognize her left on the other side of divorce. And I just wanted to write an encouraging word for anyone else going through hit. The work you're avoiding isn't optional—it's the only way through. Here's how to move from denial to acceptance when the person you built a life with just... disappears.
Here's the roadmap: The work starts now.
STEP 1: SAY THE WORD OUT LOUD
"I'm divorced." Practice it when no one's around—in your car, in the shower, staring at your reflection. The word feels impossible because it contradicts everything you planned. But avoiding it keeps you stuck in a story that's already over. Repetition breaks the shock. You're not manifesting failure friend, you’re letting reality in so you can stop fighting it.
STEP 2: GRIEVE THE FUTURE, NOT JUST THE PAST
You're not just mourning who they were to you. You're mourning the life you mapped out together. Y’all’s retirement plans, the inside jokes no one else got and the ones left unsaid, the shared history that now belongs to someone else. Friend, that version of your future died. Let yourself feel that loss without trying to logic your way out of it. Grief isn't rational. Stop expecting it to be.
STEP 3: ANSWER THE QUESTION YOU'RE AVOIDING
"What if they never apologize? What if they move on and I'm still here, stuck?"
You need to sit with this until the answer is: I'll be okay anyway. Not because you're over it, but because your healing can't depend on their remorse or their timeline. They might never acknowledge what they did. Your peace can't wait for their reckoning. Let that person go not just physically, but emotionally.
STEP 4: RECLAIM YOUR SPACE
Oh friend, the house still looks like two people live there. Could it be because changing it makes the loss undeniable? Do it anyway. Start small: one drawer, one closet, one side of the bed that's finally just yours. Rearrange furniture. Get rid of the stuff that reminds you of them. This isn't pettiness it's making space for the life you're building now. The physical act mirrors the internal work. You can't move forward while living in a shrine to what was.
STEP 5: BUILD A NEW ROUTINE THAT DOESN'T INCLUDE THEM
You scheduled your life around another person for years. Now there's a void where their presence used to be and you're filling it with work, distractions, anything to avoid the silence. Stop. Build something intentional. What do you want your mornings to look like? Your weekends? Rediscover what you like, who your people are, what makes you feel alive outside of being someone's spouse. This isn't about being "over it”. Friend, it's about remembering you exist independently. Not in the Lil Boosie I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T type of way, but with yourself at the center and the one whose pleasure is paramount.
Acceptance doesn't arrive all at once. Some days you'll wake up and forget they're gone. Some days you'll see something that reminds you and it'll gut you all over again. That's normal. Healing isn't linear. But you have to choose reality over the fantasy of what could've been, again and again, until one day, you stop choosing because it just is.
You can process it now, or carry it with you forever. The work is hard. Avoidance is harder.
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